Peace Officer’s Fellowship May 1998

Editor’s Notes:
This past month has been both frustrating and rewarding. The number of alcohol referrals has increased significantly. I am told this is usual for this time of year. I would have thought that business would be up over the Christmas holidays, but apparently not. Spring brings with it the financial pressures resulting from overspending during December and problems associated with April income tax. Depression following the holidays is also common. These and other problems relate to increased drinking, and an increase in business for me.

The frustration comes from dealing with the alcoholic who doesn’t think he/she needs help. I try to remember that I am only the messenger; I have no control over the alcoholic and am not responsible for his/her recovery. Detoxification, in-patient and out-patient services, 90 meetings in 90 days, and on-going twelfth step sessions are the tools necessary to help the practicing alcoholic on his/her road to recovery. Often it is necessary to allow the suffering alcoholic to continue on his/her path of destruction, until they realize their need for help. It is not easy to stand by and watch a fellow employee or friend lose their job, family or life.

The rewards, it would seem, come from helping those who see the problems alcohol is creating in their lives and are willing to take steps to gain sobriety. They attend meetings and listen to the wisdom provided by each of you. They are enthusiastic in their approach to working the program and usually succeed. They find a sponsor and work the 12 steps to the best of their abilities.

In my recovery, I was representative of the individuals I have described. Initially I came kicking and screaming. I did not need a program. I was not an alcoholic, even though deep down I knew I had the disease. In helping those who still suffer, the work is difficult and the frustration is high. I hope for an “easier, softer way” but it is not to be. I must continue to carry the message and allow God to do his work.

I’d also like to thank each of you who take time out at your meetings to pray for the alcoholic who still suffers. Your prayers are working.

Thank you for allowing me to share.

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